Heh. You know, I could have said so much more about the brothers and their dynamic at this stage, and their respective relationships with John!
a lot of their conversations in the beginning of S1 are about convincing the other of the value of their own perspective. I think so too. I also think that at this stage Dean has completely brainwashed himself out of acknowledging any subconscious desire he has for a return to the normal life he lost so long ago. He genuinely does enjoy what he does, gets a real kick out of it, and at this stage of season one his life hasn't really begun to spiral out of control enough for all those repressed emotions to start making themselves truly felt. So he's being completely honest when he rejects normality in this episode - normal never got him anything but hurt in the past, whereas for Sam it is something he never had and therefore craves.
Man, after so much has happened, it's so refreshing to come back to these early episodes and remember how the initial status quo was so gradually established.
I still want to have a scene where we actually see Dean hustling pool! I want to know how Sam is going to support himself without Dean! We have never seen or heard of Sam bringing in any cash. It has always been Dean keeping them both financially afloat.
this isn't about him, it's about Sam and John and he takes himself completely out of the equation in this conversation He totally does. Sam and John's estrangement hurt him so badly, and Sam's attitude throughout this episode does nothing but remind him of that. He is so concerned with achieving some kind of reconciliation, with trying to get Sam to understand their father's point of view. Ever the mediator.
The fact that John managed to make both his kids believe that he favours the other is really a trademark of his special brand of parenting. /sigh And with all his stubborness, Sam is still worried if John would even want to see him when they find him. Man, he loves his father and it really hurts to see him so insecure about John's feelings! *hugs boys again* *wibbles and mourns over all the above*
Man, the parent-child dynamic is so powerful. Even when the parent is completely absent - maybe especially so!
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
timeasmymeasure
no subject
Date: 2008-06-01 05:42 pm (UTC)a lot of their conversations in the beginning of S1 are about convincing the other of the value of their own perspective.
I think so too. I also think that at this stage Dean has completely brainwashed himself out of acknowledging any subconscious desire he has for a return to the normal life he lost so long ago. He genuinely does enjoy what he does, gets a real kick out of it, and at this stage of season one his life hasn't really begun to spiral out of control enough for all those repressed emotions to start making themselves truly felt. So he's being completely honest when he rejects normality in this episode - normal never got him anything but hurt in the past, whereas for Sam it is something he never had and therefore craves.
Man, after so much has happened, it's so refreshing to come back to these early episodes and remember how the initial status quo was so gradually established.
I still want to have a scene where we actually see Dean hustling pool!
I want to know how Sam is going to support himself without Dean! We have never seen or heard of Sam bringing in any cash. It has always been Dean keeping them both financially afloat.
this isn't about him, it's about Sam and John and he takes himself completely out of the equation in this conversation
He totally does. Sam and John's estrangement hurt him so badly, and Sam's attitude throughout this episode does nothing but remind him of that. He is so concerned with achieving some kind of reconciliation, with trying to get Sam to understand their father's point of view. Ever the mediator.
The fact that John managed to make both his kids believe that he favours the other is really a trademark of his special brand of parenting. /sigh And with all his stubborness, Sam is still worried if John would even want to see him when they find him. Man, he loves his father and it really hurts to see him so insecure about John's feelings! *hugs boys again*
*wibbles and mourns over all the above*
Man, the parent-child dynamic is so powerful. Even when the parent is completely absent - maybe especially so!
Happy marathoning!