You know what else is sad? For all of Sam's empathy and compassion, this season he's so focused on the big picture he loses track of the little things he used to find so important. When Sam died back in AHBL, Dean didn't go after Jake - he stayed with Sam. Now, I think the situation in this episode was a little different, because he KNEW an exact way to stop Dean dying, but the fact is: he seems to have no problem sacrificing time with his brother for trying to save him. For some reason, and I can't pinpoint why, I think that may come from John. Yeah, it was the soldier's choice, like I said. He saw a possible solution and he ran for it, choosing to fight for his brother's life over offering comfort. Impossible situation, because he had no way of knowing if his idea would work - and ultimately, it didn't. If Ruby hadn't come to the rescue, Dean would have died all alone, and it would have become another thing Sam wouldn't forgive himself for. But he had to try, because if he hadn't, he wouldn't have forgiven himself for that, either. So...he was doing what he had to do, but it's just another example of how focused he is, so incredibly single-minded, just to be able to walk away from Dean like that. It's definitely a character trait he got from John.
I can't imagine being Sam right now. Because if he spends all his time researching, that's time he'll never get back to be with Dean if Dean doesn't make it. And if he spends all his time with Dean, or maybe even any time at all and Dean dies, there will always be a part of him going, "If you'd looked more often, you would have found a way." Sam's more focused on the future than the now, which is how he always is - but for Dean it must hurt, because he lives for NOW, and NOW he is kind of without his brother. I'm not sure Sam even is researching ways out of the deal any more. We saw his feverish efforts at the beginning of the season, but he really seems to have completely given up now, and that's a terrible thing to contemplate because Sam never gives up.
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Date: 2008-02-06 11:42 am (UTC)Yeah, it was the soldier's choice, like I said. He saw a possible solution and he ran for it, choosing to fight for his brother's life over offering comfort. Impossible situation, because he had no way of knowing if his idea would work - and ultimately, it didn't. If Ruby hadn't come to the rescue, Dean would have died all alone, and it would have become another thing Sam wouldn't forgive himself for. But he had to try, because if he hadn't, he wouldn't have forgiven himself for that, either. So...he was doing what he had to do, but it's just another example of how focused he is, so incredibly single-minded, just to be able to walk away from Dean like that. It's definitely a character trait he got from John.
I can't imagine being Sam right now. Because if he spends all his time researching, that's time he'll never get back to be with Dean if Dean doesn't make it. And if he spends all his time with Dean, or maybe even any time at all and Dean dies, there will always be a part of him going, "If you'd looked more often, you would have found a way." Sam's more focused on the future than the now, which is how he always is - but for Dean it must hurt, because he lives for NOW, and NOW he is kind of without his brother.
I'm not sure Sam even is researching ways out of the deal any more. We saw his feverish efforts at the beginning of the season, but he really seems to have completely given up now, and that's a terrible thing to contemplate because Sam never gives up.