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llywela ([personal profile] llywela) wrote2007-04-13 07:28 pm
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rest in peace

My little Calico cat is gone.

Chelsea phoned me in work at lunchtime, in tears, to say there was something wrong, so I took the afternoon off and went straight there. She'd been fine this morning - jumping up into and out of the sink - but came home at lunchtime in distress and barely able to move. We think she must have had a fall and broke her leg, one of the hind legs that were weak and arthritic already. By the time I got there she was perfectly calm, so the initial distress seems to have been shock and probably the trauma of trying to get home, rather than pain.

She was completely content, as usual, and totally alert, as usual. She just couldn't stand.

Dad came and we took her to the vets. She wouldn't go in the box, so I held her on my lap in the car, which she thought was marvellous - wouldn't lie down, because she wanted to see out of the window! At the vets, she curled her paws around my neck and cwtched in close, but was immediately the centre of attention from everyone else in the waiting room, which, again, she thought was marvellous.

But our initial fears were confirmed. She'd broken her leg, and at her age there was just no way it was going to heal. The treatment would be too distressing for her, and she already had a weak heart. So there was nothing to do but let her go peacefully. One injection to put her to sleep and another to stop her heart, and that was it. She cwtched up, rested her head on my arm, and then she was gone.

We took her home and buried her in the back garden. We'll go to the garden centre on Sunday and buy a little tree to plant over the grave. And then that's that.

I've had that cat since I was twelve years old. I'm just so glad I had that long weekend with her, just the two of us (and Chess). I had a feeling then that I needed to make the most of every moment, and it turns out that instinct was absolutely right.

[identity profile] llywela13.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 08:49 am (UTC)(link)
I did feel very much like it was the last hurrah last weekend, even though she was still in pretty good shape. She's been so frail for so long now. And despite the broken leg she was perfectly content and happy right to the end, so I'm glad for that.

Thanks.

[identity profile] llywela13.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 08:52 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks, Janet. *cwtch back*

[identity profile] llywela13.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 08:53 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks, Anwen *huggles*

[identity profile] llywela13.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 08:56 am (UTC)(link)
So true. Calico lasted longer than any of our other cats - our Grand Old Man Sam was not quite 17 when he died a couple of years ago. We've always had cats, and they are always buried in the garden with a permanent memorial of some kind.

[identity profile] llywela13.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 08:58 am (UTC)(link)
Don't, you'll set me off again! It's going to take a while to get used to her being gone. I'm just glad she was comfortable at the end.

[identity profile] llywela13.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 08:59 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks, Kel. She was really cute.

[identity profile] llywela13.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 09:03 am (UTC)(link)
Aww, bless Gizmo. It's harder when they just disappear and you never know what happened to them. I know some cats choose to go off alone to die when they know the end is coming, but I'd much rather they stayed home with their families!

We had a couple of cats that just vanished, but they were younger. The one we're pretty sure was stolen. The other was an odd little thing. She just turned up on the doorstep one Christmas - well, windowsill, actually - and knocked on the window with a paw! We advertised, but no one came forward, so we kept her and she lived with us for over a year. Then she just vanished in the same way that she'd appeared. Littlest Hobo or what!

[identity profile] llywela13.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 09:04 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks, Line. She really was beautiful.

[identity profile] llywela13.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 09:06 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks, Carly. Family pets really are part of the family, so it isn't nice to say goodbye. But it was for the best, in the end.

[identity profile] llywela13.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 09:08 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks, Mindy. Yeah, we've lost a fair few cats over the years, but it's never easy - Calico lasted the longest of any of them.

But hey, you've got those new kittens, no - talk about circle of life.

Re: Letting go graciously

[identity profile] llywela13.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 09:12 am (UTC)(link)
Aye, all our cats have markers in the garden, and it is a comfort knowing that we kept them there.

[identity profile] shaw012145.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 09:13 am (UTC)(link)
rested her head on my arm

Comfortable and loved (now I am crying again)

[identity profile] llywela13.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 09:14 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I think it's easier to accept the loss as you grow older - I've got Small here for the weekend and she's very teary still - but it's never easy to say goodbye to a family pet you've had for so many years. Going to be strange for a while, not having the cat following me around all the time!

[identity profile] llywela13.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 09:16 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks, Irene. Yeah - 18 years is a long, long time!

[identity profile] llywela13.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 09:18 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I know a lot of animal lovers, which is nice - pets really are part of the family.

[identity profile] minki-moira.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 09:38 am (UTC)(link)
Me too. At least you have a chance to say good bye if they stay.

I had a cat that did the same thing. Showed up one day, but disappeard about six months later.

[identity profile] l23.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 12:58 pm (UTC)(link)
I am so sorry Jo. Losing pets is awful. :( Huge hugs to you.

[identity profile] kirsi27.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 01:53 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry, Jo. :( But she had a long and happy cat-life and got to leave peacefully. Sleep well, Calico.

[identity profile] ex-creamyco.livejournal.com 2007-04-14 06:46 pm (UTC)(link)
I do understand how you feel, it's awful, terrible and it frighten me to think of this moment for our little baby cats...

All my support, love & whatever will please you <3 ! Sorry again...

[identity profile] lusciousxander.livejournal.com 2007-04-15 01:23 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry to hear about your cat, Jo, it must be so hard to lose her after 18 years. :( May she rest in peace.

[identity profile] rosely.livejournal.com 2007-04-15 04:56 pm (UTC)(link)
OMG *cries with Jo*

Losing your cat is so sad and painful. Thankfully you had just spend the weekend with her, and had had a chance for some quality time.
I'm so sorry she had to be put down, but glad that you were with her when it happened. I still feel the loss of my cat who died august 2005, I guess you just keep them in your heart forever. *hugs Jo tight*

[identity profile] jayres.livejournal.com 2007-04-15 05:11 pm (UTC)(link)
So sorry to hear about your cat. :(
She was beautiful.
*hugs*

[identity profile] llywela13.livejournal.com 2007-04-15 05:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks, Rosely - pets really are a part of the family, so it takes some adjusting when we lose them. I'm glad I spent last weekend with her, too.

[identity profile] llywela13.livejournal.com 2007-04-15 05:15 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks, Judy - she really was.

[identity profile] llywela13.livejournal.com 2007-04-15 05:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks, Kirsi .I'm glad it was so peaceful in the end.

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