I'm so very sorry that this time you had been dreading has come so quickly. When I was reading your post about your long weekend with Calico, I had a funny feeling that you were saying your private farewells to each other.
There is a strange comfort in being there with them at the end, for me at least.It is such a kind end, so quick and peaceful.
Poor Small, too, it must have been quite traumatic for her to see Calico injured.
Will be thinking about you - take care of yourself.